My dads unintentional parental shortcoming

I truly feel my relationship with my father is hindered due to lack of nude male bonding beyond the age of 4 when we stopped sharing showers. Thanks to mom my dad and I stopped sharing a house around that time as well. But he was always present in my upbringing but that bond I see him and my younger brother share, and by circumstance they spent every day together which inevitably gives them the leg up but I know for a fact they have been nude in front of/with one another as recently as this year. My brother is straight and I am smart (j/k my heter-bros)and I am gay. As accepting as he is now I think he being my dad has always known and by societal influence formed a close in nature but different dynamic with me. My brother will ditch his shorts with me when were out on the water and I am happy to have that. Would love to hear people with similar as well as the opposite experiences I daydream of. Thanks for investing your time towards my wordy divulgence.