Happily Single and Living Alone

Married my childhood sweetheart. Had five kids. Wife died when we were 41. Ihatedbeing single. Wasn't living alone, had five children. Got married again. Had another kid. Got divorced. I am now very happily single and living alone. I sometimes think it would be nice to have a room mate or something along those lines, and then realize that I'd truly not like it. I wish I could have been this happy been single after my wife died.